Published by Self-Published on 10/24/2017
Format: eARC, eBook
Darlene Montgomery has been to hell and back…more than once. After a stint in jail for drug possession, she is finally clean and ready to start over. Yet another failed relationship is just the motivation she needs to move from New York to San Francisco with the hopes of resurrecting her dance career and discovering that she is more than the sum of her rap sheet. As Darlene struggles in her new city, the last thing she wants is to become entangled with her handsome—but cranky—neighbor and his adorable little girl...
Sawyer Haas is weeks away from finishing law school, but exhaustion, dwindling finances, and the pressure to provide for himself and his daughter, Olivia, are wearing him down. A federal clerkship--a job he desperately needs--awaits him after graduation, but only if he passes the Bar Exam. Sawyer doesn’t have the time or patience for the capricious—if beautiful—dancer who moves into the apartment above his. But Darlene’s easy laugh and cheerful spirit seep into the cracks of his hardened heart, and slowly break down the walls he’s resurrected to keep from being betrayed ever again.
When the parents of Olivia’s absentee mother come to fight for custody, Sawyer could lose everything. To have any chance at happiness, he must trust Darlene, the woman who has somehow found her way past his brittle barbs, and Darlene must decide how much of her own bruised heart she is willing to give to Sawyer and Olivia, especially when the ghosts of her troubled past refuse to stay buried.
I first read Forever Right Now last year. I fell into the lives of Sawyer and Darlene as one does with an Emma Scott book; easily and relentlessly. Frankly, I did not want to leave them, which probably explains why I’ve reread FRN this year and frequently skim my kindle copy to relive my favorite scenes over and over again. Each time feels like finding a $10 bill in the pocket of a winter coat. It’s full of exciting discovery and pure joy mixed with a bit of surprise. How these simple feelings can be brought out by Emma’s easily read prose is something I delight in when reading one of her books, but somehow she’s amplified it with Forever Right Now.
There is one specific thing I want to discuss, or make note of; Darlene’s gray old man sweater. It’s described as bulky, ratty, old, ugly. I’m probably wrong but I feel like this sweater of Darlene’s is a metaphor for her addiction, her recovery, and her guilt.
“I love this sweater. I wear it all the time.”
She wears it for protection and comfort, and as a reminder and motivation. Every time the sweater made an appearance the scene felt more significant, especially when the characters would make note of it.
“She wore a bulky sweater, but it didn’t conceal what she was.”
As the story progresses, she doesn’t wear it as much which mirrors her character’s growth and development as she gained confidence and self-acceptance. In the end it’s loved by Sawyer too, which to me signifies his acceptance of her and her past and all of the fragility she brings to their relationship. Again, I love how the simplistic nature of something so innocuous can be so significant to a character in a story. It makes me want to reread all of Emma’s books to see if this is her “thing” or a conscious choice she made for Darlene. I’d love to discuss it with her, and other parts of Darlene. She is a character that is equal parts vulnerable and resilient, and I just love her.
Emma also wrote Sawyer fantastically well. He is so hard yet so soft. There is an insistence is his admiration for others, as though his love comes with an added strength or protectiveness and not something given to others without thought. It’s difficult to describe but it is easily identified throughout the story. I also felt all swoony any time he would use his mega-mind to make recollections about Darlene. It felt as though his eidetic memory was bothersome to him but every time he would use it remember things about Darlene, it was more of an enjoyable and emotionally torturous bother. The good kind of bother. You get what I mean.
The supporting cast of characters was also fantastic. I’d be happy if Jackson got a book, or a novella. Short story. Newsletter outtake. SOMETHING. Sorry, I’m weak for a funny man. Olivia was also written exceptionally well. I never had the “a one year old would never do that” thought. She was cute and funny and really brought an emotionally dynamic layer to the story.
I have one complaint – not enough sex. *shrug* I honestly did not even notice the lack of sex in this book while reading because it is such a smart, thoughtful and emotional book however, when they finally get between the sheets, I was dying for more. So, yeah. Sex novella, sex short, sex newsletter outtake. Any of those, all of those. I’m not that picky.
This is an easy, no brainer, must read recommendation for Forever Right Now. I hope you love it as much as I did.